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Duolous - Radical 

During one of the outings with small group leaders, we asked ourselves the question of “who is God to us?” A lot of the answers had a common theme, where they answered, God is someone that loves us. I did not give much thought to this answer. Upon reading this book, I came across the same question and the radical answer that the author proposed. God is a being that needs to be worshipped. 

I have noticed that often in our church and especially in myself, we focus too much on God’s love and not enough on the responsibility of our worship to a deserving God. 

I have often come to church looking for “grace.” In Korean, we say “giving” worship, and yet I was coming to receive. There was nothing I was giving. I realize that it was a transaction, where I give my time and God gives me grace. 

I live a comfortable life. I have never starved, I have never lived in a place with no internet or water. Looking back on all the “grace” that I have received, I have never thought to give more. From the outside looking in, some may think that I am already giving enough. 

I serve as a small group leader in KM Young Adults. I serve as Sunday School teacher for the 9th grade boys. I also went on a mission to Japan this year. 

However, I know my heart. I serve because it is under my threshold. Serving in my current capacity does not make me uncomfortable. 

Reading this book challenges me into thinking that maybe serving God should not be so comfortable. Maybe if I am truly following in Christ’s footstep and taking up my cross, I should be more uncomfortable. 

The last chapter talks about challenges. Some of these I had already planned to do. The financial part, there was no plan for it. I love my money. I actually don’t spend that much money, but I just love hoarding money seeing the number in my bank account go up! 

I think I found a place where my money will be going in 2026. 

This book was very challenging in that it focused me on what the gospel actually is and how far my life is from actually becoming a true Christ follower. It will be a long journey, but through prayer and support from my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, I look forward to the glory of God being reflected on me.