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Where is my walk with God?  Where am I trying to go?  How strong is my faith?  These are all questions that were swirling inside my head before I started this bible study class.  I still have no definitive answer to each question.  Even so, I believe I have received more answers to the questions than before.  I believe these questions can’t be answered immediately and can only be answered throughout my walk in faith throughout my life. 

Has my walk with God gotten better after taking this class?  I can answer yes to that question to that question.  My prayer life and Bible reading has gotten more consistent since it was homework.  Like the studious self I am, I always had to complete my homework.  Will I be able to continue the prayer and reading after class?  That is yet to be determined but I will try my best.  I can always want to do it in my head but actually doing it, is completely different.  I pray to God for my needs and wants but there is always a little doubt in my head, will this truly come to pass.  If God’s way is the best and righteous way, we can pray night and day and not receive the outcome we are looking for.  My cousin passed away this week with major health complications.  I’m sure my aunt and her twin prayed for her health but there was no happy outcome for them.  Why are some people cured but others not?  What is God’s plan?  Asking these questions maybe a testament to lack of faith or me wanting to believe God planned it this way.  I always pray for God to lead me in my life wherever that may be.

Where am I trying to go?  I absolutely do not know where I want to go.  Do I want to provide a better life for my wife and kids?  Of course, I do.  There is a saying that you give up work for your family or give up family for work.  Where does God fit into this equation?  Where does God want me to be and what does he want me to do?  I am trying my best at my current position at work.  I learned in class that by doing my best, I can show that Jesus is leading my life.  I can become a light in the dark and be a blessing to my co-workers.  Helping my fellow co-workers, doing work nobody else wants to do.  Hopefully by trying my best others can experience the love God has shown me and continues to show.

My faith has gotten stronger by attending class but what tribulations can I withstand?  If my life became like Job’s life, will I still be able to praise God?  How much can I endure before I start to break down like Peter denying Jesus?  I hope never to be tested to that amount because the Bible states He will only tempt you to the level you are capable of overcoming.  Or should I be happy that God is testing me that much since He knows I am capable of withstanding those tests?  My faith in God is rooted strong but it still needs water, sun, and nutrients added to make it stronger.  My daily walk needs to be rooted with prayer and word of God.  Having fellow members share their stories and praying with and for me helped me with my faith.  Having others to rely on for support and prayer strengthened my faith.  Also always knowing Jesus is there and being attached to Him helped me understand that His grace and love protects me.

This class has taught me we are not alone and that we need to support each other in Christ.  It is easy to fall down but if there is someone next to you to help you up, you can stand again and continue on.  Living in faith and walking with God are becoming harder to do in this life but having fellowship and a place to come together to pray is a wonderful thing.  Everyone’s faith and part in a church are different but one must be there to lend support to our other brothers and sisters.  Life is a marathon and comes with many ups and downs but with God and love, we can overcome them all.